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Monday, 16 May 2016

Maryam Mohamed Ismail @ NCC 2016 Poetry ''Let me discover myself'' (1s...

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  1. Let Me Discover Myself
    ======================
    Maryam is my name
    And I’ve been called that since the first day
    That’s what my parents named me
    Ever since I was a baby
    Years passed by
    And time flew aside
    As I started school that day
    Here I was still called by my name
    But a student was what they say
    And then came school’s culture week
    Where we shared the language that we speak
    We learnt about Modern Greek
    And I was part of the Asian streak
    And then as I grew up
    It was the British Government
    Who called me the British Empowerment
    And now that was the new acknowledgement
    Now came the issue in Secondary School
    Where the school folks were those who rule
    Am I smart, or short, or am I cool
    But I cannot let them ridicule
    And some may just class me as a girl of 12 years of age
    Or close to a teenage
    Studying in year eight
    With many school mates
    So Maryam was what they first used
    And then to a student it moved
    To crazy names that folks used
    But am I British or Asian? Coz I’m confused
    “So who are you?” You may ask
    But that is the unsolved task
    Because what you see on the outside
    It’s simply just a mask
    So what I believe
    Is that all these names will come to an end one day
    And will not forever stay
    As Maryam is simply just my name
    Like the paint on a window frame
    And without it everything will still be the same
    And I wouldn’t have been British
    If I were born in another village
    And I wouldn’t have been Asian
    If I were born to different Parents
    I could have been Polish, Syrian or American
    Therefore this is just due to inheritance
    And what they say at school
    Is obviously not true
    As one day they may call you a toadstool, and the next they call you cool
    You cannot let them overrule
    So if a student is what depends
    Am I still a student in the weekend
    But what about when I do not attend?
    Not as a student is my life most spent
    And as for my age,
    It’s always gonna change
    As every year comes my birthday
    And I definitely can’t be identified this way
    So now I know that all these identities only last for a while
    Or it’s due to your lifestyle
    You may be someone and someone else meanwhile
    These are just to fill your profile
    So my true self is something which will last forever
    Something that would still be there if I were born to whomever
    Something that wouldn’t change if I lived wherever
    Something which isn’t just for pleasure,
    but something which is there to treasure
    And the Prophet (saw) says in a Hadith,
    That,” The one who finds themselves, Finds there lord”
    And now I fell empty and numb
    Confused and dumb
    My soul screaming out to me
    Because it’s true self is what it wants to see
    And that’s also what I want to believe
    I’ll search for myself everywhere
    High up in the mountains and elsewhere
    In between all the branches and under all the leaves
    If success is what it means

    And now I’ve finally discovered who I really am
    I found it in the middle of a traffic jam
    Trying it’s best to hold tight on the rope
    Because dying with me was its ultimate hope
    This identity was simply my own choice
    Wherever I am this will always be my voice
    Whatever be my age
    This will never, ever change
    This identity wasn’t given to me by somebody else
    Nor was it due to inheritance
    It’s not something temporary
    But something entirely necessary
    So now I’ve found myself, and I’ve found my lord
    And to please him is all I can afford
    I only submit to him and to others my soul is not sold
    And I’m not the slave of trends and money, but my ultimate goal is to please my lord
    My entire life is a challenging task
    And before every action I have to ask
    What is the consequence of this task?
    And will God be happy with this task?
    My Lord is Allah
    And my Eternal home is Jannah
    My enemy is Shaytan
    And this world is not where I truly belong
    My Actions should not be sins
    And my ultimate goal is to please him
    Finally...
    I am part of a 1.6 billion membered family,
    And I am proud to say
    That I have discovered myself as a MUSLIM



















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